Best Blond Joker Ever.

It took me a little bit to figure this one out but once I did I knew I had to post it! Click on the title of this post and then come back and tell me what you think!:)

God is Good!

I was sorry I didn't make the movie with friends but God had something different in mind. I got a chance to visit with my mentore from High school to review my writing. She was very much an encouragement to me. In fact, before picked her up for dinner she was praying for me and the Father layed it on her heart that I needed job. She gave my a tip I will follow up on this week. Please pray for the Lord's guidance as I feel this opportunity would be a great match.

After that I made it in time for the last little bit of The Well at Apex. After they dismissed us for game night, I went into the cafe area to hear a young man played a lovely, relaxing song the piano. I play a little bit and grew up in a very musicaly inclined family. When he finished I decided to take my turn at the keyboard. I don't know how to explain it but something happened. I sat down and just started playing. I don't normaly do that, haven't done it years but the Lord just braught something to mind and I started playing and wrote the first couple lines of a song write there at the Keyboard. it was, I don't know, almost magical. It was just a God-thing. Then Saturday, I went and played pool with my boyfriend and gave him the I gave Dating A Chance book. He was like, "You better be glad I love you because I don't read anything hardly ever accept for my Bible." We talked about alot of things that evening very serious things which seems as inappropiate to post here as it was for us to be even discussing it. I covet year prayers.
Evie

Girls only!

For girls only!
if you are a girl read on for more!









Fairly recently for the first time ever at the age of twenty-four I have entered the worldo of dating. I have had some dates but never a steady boyfriend. I have also never kissed anyone (unless you count Edie Sweetnitch in gradeschool. And yes. I am not sure of the spelling but that was his last name!LOL Josh has only been a christian for two years. I am by far by no means a spiritual giant. We do, however, approach some things in life very differently and have had very varied experiences with the opposite.

Now, have you ever said something to the oposite sex and have second thoughts about it but you can't exactly take it back? Well, this week, I blurted out to Josh that I love him. But now I question if I used the right words at the wrong time in our relationship. It was at first hard for Josh to accept the idea that I might not kiss him ever, untill if the Lord should bring it about, that we should get married. It seems obsurd to some people but the more I read the more I believe it is the right choice for me. But I think to Josh, if I love him that means certain things. I worry that he is too concerned about just what we can do physicaly while I'm more concerned about what we shouldn't do. He way desires a level of physical intimacy, (lots of cuddling, lots holding hands, even putting his hand on my knee while trying to drive.) that sometimes is over the top for me. Which led me to wonder, is something wrong with me? If I love him, shouldn't I want to do atleast do some of things that a man and women would who care about each other do physically? Just where do you draw the line? I am holding fast to my ideal to not kiss man unless I am going to marry him. Its just something most young men don't understand. I believe that is the obedience the Lord has aske of me.

But why oh why did i hafta go and say I love him? Now Josh has told me feels that I am an answer to his pra yer. Wow. No pressure there, hu? Trying to be the answer to someones prayers is not an easy task. One of the difficult things in this relationship is that we don't know some of the same people. We have become kind of isolated but I think Josh recognized that because when we go bowling tomorrow its not just going to be me and him its also going to be I think his aunt and uncle and I think one other person. I think we do need to try and do more group activities. Just please, please pray for us. I did not use wisdome or discernment in what I said and I wish we had a mutual friend that if i ever had to have a seriousnes talk with him that that person could accompany and kind of be a mediator and a witness of what went on and what was said. We need accoutability and we need communion.

My true age.

You Are 22 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Were a Deer

Graceful and gentle, you appreciate beauty and balance. A giving soul, you are able to sacrifice for the greater good.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

Pondering my art and the art of others

I have enjoyed looking at the art in the Apex Cafe (at least thats what I call it). When it comes to art, I more enjoy photographs or pictures of nature people. Like this one. I do however respect the time and energy it takes to creat what Chris has on display and the work I have seen Amanda do (I would like to see more) even if I do need to have some of explained to me (by Amanda!) I just wish I could take more (writing poetry) and express it in similar way.

That is actually the reason I am writing this. I couldn't stop thinking about and have been tossing and turning while trying to take Sunday afternoon nap. I wish I could creat some kind of picture or background for this song that I expanded on. It more obviouse of how well it works together if I were to sing it but heres the words anyway:

Spring up oh well (spring up oh well)
Within my soul
Spring up oh well (spring up oh well)
and make me whole
Spring up oh well (Spring up oh well)
And give to me
That life abundantly

Oh there is a riven
Flowing inside my soul
It is a river (it is a river)
That will never run dry
Step into the water (step into water)
And you will fine
Love and mercey (love and mercery)
And peace divine
Come on and step into the water
Oh step into the water.

So,
Come drink of the water of the fountaine of life
Come and step into the crimson tied
There is love.
There is Joy.
There is peace divine.

It might be a stupid thought but the whole idea was really bugging me. I think the art display at Apex challenges me to explore my art, think outside the box and keep on even though its not on display where everyone can see or hear it. Art impacts people differently. That is how it impacts me. Apex, artist: Keep up the work. We need you!