I guess you could say I'm feeling pretty down right now. I need to rant for second. Despite everyone praying for me it looks like i am letting God and everyone else down. Its probably a good thing I diddn't get to share my testimony or whatever on a Wednesday night. I haven't earned a right to do that. The first two days went well but it seems I've managed to (parden the expression) make a big donkeys behind of myself. Its time like this im ashamed to call myself a Christian. I hate the pressure to be perfect. I hate the fact that I can never afford to be human and screw up every once in awhile. Never mind the fact that even none-christians seem to experience more success in everyday life and favor with people than I do. I am an unremarkable Chrstian; a thing far worse than being an unbeliever. Unbelieves put my relationship with Christ to shame because it seems like they have all their ducks in a row and I can't even walk and chew gum at the same time. What is wrong with me????
evie
About Me
- ashira
- Dayton, Ohio, United States
- I am 24 year old Christian who loves posting on my friends Xanga sites, children, writing, going to church and movies. I recently graduated from Sinclair Community College. I attend Apex Community Church
2 comments:
Christ doesn't ask for perfection, churches do. And that's a sin.
Stop comparing yourself to others! You will never be like anyone else, good or bad. You're not supposed to be.
Part of being human is being flawed; it's who we are. That doesn't mean we are failures. "While we were YET sinners, Christ died for us..." and you know what? We are yet sinners, even after we believe; the difference is now we know it! but we also know that sin does not have to define us. Fortunately, neither does perfection.
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